An Awakening.

It has been since a long i have missed both cellgrp and our usual service in a row. In fact, i doubt i have missed even any in a really long time. A period back, it would seem absurd and ridiculous even to be so committed, but now it would be even unthinkable to miss praising him, listening to the Word of God during the weekends. What do you call it? Right, cleansing of the soul.

In any case, it felt half funny, half empty to miss out.

So, i met up with my squad back from sj days for quite a while after classroom session. Obviously everyone changed, we did no relieving of the magnificent past, just chilling and all. Friends, i guess will always be friends.

Funny thing is since we are gna meet up, i suggested why not just throw a surprise celebration for ris as well, so we got the cake, waited for him to go to the toilet and prepared. Thought i was in the loop for the surprise, turned out that i got surprised with a birthday cake too.

Before the day ended, went over to expo. I always love being around N112, gives me a warm, snug feeling. I know most of us aren't tight, but well. It just feels awesome, to be specific - safe.
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在单单一天之内与多人的谈话之中让我深深地感受和意识到自从实习开始之后，我就似乎非常执着于我从不理会的想法和某些我昔日都觉得无味的情绪。我仿佛一直拼命地在尝试变成一个根本不是自己的自己。虽然这都是潜意识的改变，但是我毫无意愿持于现状。搜索着我的回忆里，我是个不愿被牵制于任何人，事物或情感的自由身。

这应意味着一个更真实，更完整的我。


At the center of your being you have the answer; you know who you are and you know what you want.
- Lao Tzu