Desire

means either a



or a


for now. momentarily.
desperately need a music player man.
but heck. these 'apples' are too expensive to chew on.
haha.
unless i spot cheap deals at simlim or funan.
cross my fingers. u do the same too ya?

went with disgrp for dinner at 85.
usual fare. simple talk. chatty selves. flooding memories.
sums it all up huh.
but no. there is always an added element of something special which keeps us together.
no.no. not the half-bareback bud jiemin was wearing.haha.
not the blackblack thingy huiyin drew on her eyes too. lol.

then the sok who always seems to click so easily like a "boon" shared the same craving for something yellow after dinner with me!
guess what's it.

Banana?

NOPE.


What about mango?


Nah.

Ahhh. i know must be...

absolutely! its just durian.
haha.

yesyes. i know i am ridiculously nonsensical.
but what-to-do? this is kokkeng.

but some just dont share the love for durians huh. apparently. haha.

went home. but not without some stinky funny incident about a burp unleashing fragrance smelling of durians through the cabin. resulting in ppl holding their breath.

thenthen. it comes as no surprise for someone like me who has no discipline that stayed up till 5 before going to some ulu place to "sweep tomb??" with only 1 hr slp in between.
went with parents and this uncle of mine who gave us a ride.
Some stuffs and words stirred up issues within me and set me thinking. awake instantly.
for the mass majority of my family and myself who have such differences in religious views.
what's gonna happen if (touchwood) someone close pass away.
i seriously cant imagine man.
though several scenerios surfaced.
but i cant bear to let them stick.

heck. let me get some hours of shuteye first.
maybe God will gimme some needed answers. :)

Currently Listening: Lost Highway- Bon Jovi

On a Sunday afternoon...

i have nothing on my hands and mind.

yes. on such a boring sunny afternoon.
like a bowl of tasteless congee.

only because of aborted plans to east coast park.
watching slumdog on the lappie didnt help as well.
just only serves as a reminder that i'm trapped at home staring into a technological gadget that does not promise any gratification of the soul. (haha)

and.. the pain coming from my aching thighs is providing an unwelcomed diversion.
caused by the match with lyndon's team ytd afternoon.
we ran out 3-2 winners.
a fortuitous win i would say.
due to their never-say-die spirit. ironically huh.

i just took a quiz on facebook.
telling me that i look out for girls with personality.
and that she would be one with brains and beauty.
haha. i never take these results seriously.
'cos no matter how unwilling, the subconscious mind would help to generate politically justified answers huh. no?

but. how good if the result is true. ya? :)


listening to: Unsaid- the Fray

Outrage.

at nothing in particular.

in fact. nowadays i could just sit down and be cross with anything in the world nowadays.
In fact, i was just scowling at a cat which was making some unnecessary sounds.
hope andropause isn't coming for me.
though i'm sure the age of my body has already caught up with that of my father's.
nah. its just an over-exagerrated statement. i hope.

anyway. this hols has been passing like the ant i am currently oberving on my laptop.
crawling at an unbelievable slow pace.
i need to inject some pace into it. even though i have been going for events and camps.
but nothing really seems to intrigue me.

i am really aiming to save up for 2 watches and an unidentified music player.
but after doing some calculations.
it wouldn't really be mathematically realistic for the current me who is really in a pathetic state of financial health.
i wouldn't want to jeopordise my current account balance. would i?

oh. tell you whoever is reading this. If you've got any golden job opportunities for me, contact me right away ya? Best is that i can continue working through my study semesters. Not desperate but urgent enough.

Anyway. My basic theory test is coming real quick. Soon to be right in my face on April 3rd. not that i am excited. right.
'cos i've not exactly opened up that small little green book to check out how stringent singapore's traffic rules are. instead i am often caught out either engrossed with a novel by whoever or comfortably nested on the sofa watching tv programmes one after another. i call them soul- feeding food for the hols.

something else. when i'm not at home. i would be out kicking some round ball doing a sport call soccer. that was something i was madly obsessed with during me secondary school life. even in jc period. strangely, over the years i gradually lost the hardcore passion for the sport. just excited to do the occasional kicking with good ol' mates. never mind the lack of pace in our games anymore. but once in a while, adreline pumping through soccer matches is welcomed too. This coming sat, we'll be having one. can't wait.

actually there has been something real urgent at the back of my mind before i started on this post. cant decide now if it was to remember to get all the contacts i need due to my lost phone or was it to catch Heroes.

darn. see me real soon.
betcha hope so. :)

Cognizance

I love Sentosa man!
Esp Siloso Beach. haha.
The best thing is that there is free entry for one whole year.
so volleyball-ed and frisbee-ed for the whole of the day.
hilda was totally saying that the amount of tanning oil i applied would get me cancer la.
haha.

scooted off to the hawker outside senotsa for dinner.
and we gorged ourselves like some slumdogs.
then went for rochor beancurd then home.
seriously havent enjoy myself in this way in such a long long time alr.
absolutely awesome.
cant wait for the next time out.

Oh and disgrp is flying off to Taiwan in April.
still considering man.
real tempting but so many factors to take into account.
A job will go a long way in helping me to make a decision though. :))




When change is the only constant.
adaptation is the solitary bargaining chip you have.

i really pray it will work out just fine. :))